There is probably something wrong with me
Because I get so overwhelmed so easily by the inherent tragedy of life. I look at babies and sometimes all I can think about is how hard junior high is going to be, and how disappointing life is, and how horrible people are. I look at children and am reminded that childhood isn’t necessarily the idyllic playtime we’d all like to think it is. I look at teenagers and wonder how they’ll survive the terrific wasteland of their twenties.
I’m not sure how normal it is to be so dismayed by the human condition and the cruelty and evil in the world, but there are times I just want it to stop. I want to push pause on my imaginary magical remote control and freeze people in those moments of happiness so they don’t have to deal with the inevitable end of happiness.
I just can’t stand to see people in pain and I want to make it all go away.
April 12th, 2010 at 3:34 pm
Something about this reminds me of the little I’ve learned about the Buddha.
There is nothing wrong with you. If more people felt like you did perhaps there would be more people trying to make it better. You have a heart full of charity.
April 12th, 2010 at 3:46 pm
I can relate. Sometimes I have to remind myself that life is not supposed to be pleasant all the time, and that if it were, I’d be bored. Life is supposed to help us grow and become. Ah, well.
April 16th, 2010 at 8:38 am
I’ve noticed lately that the sin and turmoil of the world really gets to me. I think, what’s the point of trying to do some good when so much evil is around anyway? A very dangerous POV to have, but sometimes I can’t help how spiritually tired I can get.